I lost my chance. I’m too late. Isn’t it sad? I thought I could do it, I thought I could fight for her but you can’t just get what you want that easily huh? 

You know what? Next time, when I do want something or someone, I’m not going to be indecisive. I’m going to follow my heart and go for it, despite all the obstacles, all the consequences, or what people say, I’m not going to give a fuck. Nothing is going to get in my way next time.

I honestly want you back. I mean, I never officially had you in the first place but we had something. Now..talking to you again, I just want it back. I want that “chance” back with you. We never really tried did we? Am I too late now? I mean, you did tell me about her but something is telling me not to give up. I want you. I want “us” to happen.

The saddest part is the fact that I could give you the world if you let me. I can make you fucking happy.

I like two girls. One is a player and one is a goodie tooshoo. They’re best friends. Why do I attract complicated situations? Just fuck my life.

I have such a major crush on someone I hardly even talk to. Why does that happen to me? Why? IT KILLS.

I’m honestly super exhausted from love. No, I am not bullshitting any of you. I am just completely tired of it. I need a break but my heart won’t let me, isn’t that cruel of it? Like constantly, once I have moved on from someone..in a snap, it focuses on a new girl. I wish I could just turn it off just like that. That would be great. That would be entirely great. It’ll make my life so much easier. I wish I can turn off my feelings and be a careless bitch for at least a week.

I’m hurting and no one can help me. That’s the thing though, I don’t want anyone’s help. I’m tired of hearing, “are you okay?” “what’s wrong?” It doesn’t do shit. I’m writing this because I need an outlet. I don’t want any fucking sympathy. So don’t do it, I’m warning you.